Those are NOT jellybeans!

I had my post IUI progesterone test today.  My level was low-  only 5.3.  Even though our nurse says that the progesterone level is not an indicator of whether or not the egg was fertilized, I can't help but feel defeated.  I feel like my body is not doing what it's supposed to do.  

So now I get to go back on the progesterone suppositories.  I'll be taking them not once, not twice, but three times a day.  Yuck.  I hate progesterone.  The pills look innocent enough- almost like jellybeans.  

Who knew they would be such horrible little things?  I hate the mess.  I hate that it mimics the symptoms of early pregnancy.  Most of all, I hate that it throws my cycle off.  The first time I had to use progesterone, I didn't know that it could make my period come a few days late.  I was so excited when I made it through day 28, 29 and 30 without any signs of AF.  But then, just as I was about to test, AF showed up.  I had gotten my hopes so built up, only to be disappointed.  I can only hope that being prepared for the side effects of progesterone will make it easier to deal with this time around.